We had our first doctors visit at ValleyOBGYN on April 16th and as soon as I walked in I remembered how much I love the place! My drs are all amazing, professional, and kind. Even with it being a group practice they know me and remembered my liver complications. Nothing really can be done about Cholestasis but we'll watch for signs and keep our prayers coming. (Knowing and feeling like we wanted to have another baby I did a liver cleanse back in December. In January we went back to the dr to get everything in order and had my liver numbers tested so I could see what my base numbers, no pregnancy looked like; they were great, so ahead we went.) I got to see Dr Drews this visit, one of my favorites and the one who primarily helped me with all my liver stuff last time.
Long ways away still but I REALLY want to go into labor on my own...induction was interesting and I'm grateful Harlow was fine. I want to labor at home. I will be going yet another different route this delivery, I'm looking into hypnobirthing. The idea is basically this: women have given birth since Adam and Ev, literally. Our bodies are beautiful and miraculous gifts. They were made to do this. When we have fear our bodies tighten up which is then counterproductive to the progress our bodies are trying to make. Releasing the fear mind over matter, breathing patterns, visualizations, physical touch all help keep your mind calm. Something interesting I'm learning is that when endorphins are released into your body they are more powerful and cover up pain. I experienced this with delivering Harlow. My body was shaking, even with the epidural while I was in transition. It wasn't a cold shiver, it was a tension shiver or such...does that make sense? I asked Nathan to run his hand down my side or arm and amazingly, as soon as he started to simply touch me my shakes went away. He would get distracted and stop and when he stopped my shakes returned. Touch, a loving trusting touch creates a release of natural, powerful endorphines.
Another thing that's going to probably sound silly is that months ago we watched these movies about animals having babies, the elephant sticks out in my memory. The mother elephant was very calm, no screaming, hollering, or even panting...just calm swaying. And she birthed her baby is near silence. Sure, you might say, it's an elephant and she's huge...well so is her baby!!
...I am intrigued by all this and will be for sure learning much more as time progresses. Our bodies, birth, and motherhood are beautiful, sacred, and wonderful! I'm so grateful for this honor and privilege.
If any one of you have had experiences with natural birth, hypnobirthing, the Lamaze method and feel inclined to share you are more than welcome to, I'd love to hear what you have to say, being respectful of the decision I've already made, of course :)